Sәrsenbi, 22 Qyrkýiek 2021
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«Adamdar ózine úqsamaghan adamdy jerleuge asyghady»

Býgin belgili qalamger Ayagýl Mantay ómirden ótti. Biz jazushynyng әleumettik jelidegi songhy jazbasyn (21 shilde) oqyrman nazaryna úsynghandy jón kórdik...

Janyndy kirletking kelmeydi... Jandýniyendi barynsha taza ústaghyng keledi... Biraq bar bolghany pendesin... Janyng tym nәzik bolsa, tipti qiyn... Syilap jýrgen adamynnyng aramdyghyn sezsen, kýirep, synyp ketesin... Týisiging myqty bolsa, oiyn sezip qoysan, tipti qiyn...

Jaghympaz adamdardan qasham... Qaraymyn, olardyng jandýniyesinde bir tynyshtyq bar. Olar jaghympazdyghyna tipti de arlanbaydy. Jaghympazdyq qasiyetimen aqsha jasaydy.

Jarymay jýrip, pont jasaytyn adamdardan qasham. Jasandylyq kóp... Jasandylyghy kóp adamgha pasyqtyq pen aramdyq tәn...

Prinsiypi joq adamdardan qasham... Olar kez kelgen kezde satyp ketedi.

Uәde berip, oryndamaytyn adamdardan qasham. Prinsiypi joq adam ghana uәde berip, oryndamaydy.

Mýgedek bolsa da, Qúdaygha shaghynbaytyn adamdardy bilem. Jandýniyesi tap-taza. Biyik. Parasatty. Solardyng qasynda ruhany mýgedektigine úyalasyn...

Ókinishtisi, adamdar ózine úqsamaghan adamdy óltiruge, jerleuge asyghady...

Men ylghy da jýrekke oraludy, Qúdaygha oraludy armandappyn. Biraq oralmappyn...

Ózimning tap-taza jýregimdi, Qúdaydy tapqym keledi.

(Bar bolghany namaz oqysam dep jýrgen qyzdyng kónil-kýii. Eskertem: morali tyndaghandy, oqyghandy únatpaymyn).

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