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Ghasyrlar boyy qalyptasqan qazaq saltynyn, әldeqashan energetikalyq jolgha ainalyp ketken qazaq yrymynyng kiyesi bar. Oidan shygharyp salt jasap, yrymdy saudagha salyp 70 000-gha túsau kesip jýrgen jan zaual degenning bar ekenin úqpaydy-au... Ol zaualdyng ózin emes, úrpaghyn soghatynyn týsindiretin onyng ainalasynda janashyry joq nemese ashkózdikten kereng hәm soqyr bop qalghan. 70 jyl orystyng bodanynda qalghanda bú qazaq saltyn saudagha salyp, balanyng túsauyn artynan nemese ýsh adamgha keskizip tap búlay laqpaghan edi. Apam aitatyn saptyayaqqa as qúiyp sabyna qarauyl qoyghan zamanda ózindegi bardy baghalaghan qazaq erkindik alghan azat dәuirde últtyq qúndylyghyn nege búlay qorlap jýr? Osyghan ózge últ kinәli me? Joq. Óz dәstýrine qiyanat jasap jatqan qazaqtyng ózi ghoy.
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Ýidegi sheshe, kelgen jerinde ene aitar kenesti, eng aldymen, óz qaltasyn qampaytudy kózdegen aqyl satqyshtardan týrli meyramhanada otyryp tyndasa, miyna my qosyla ma, adamdardyng aqyly tasy ma? Meyli ghoy, qalay, qayda júmsaymyn dese de, әrkimning óz aqshasy. Múnayly ólkelerge әnshiler de, aqyl satqyshtar әues. Kileng aqymaq kelinder men toy jasaghysh baylar sonda túrady óitkeni. Taghy da meyli ghoy... Biraq deymin de... Aqshanyng sonyna týsip sandalyp ekige ekini qosqanda tórt bolatynyn aqy tóletkizip aityp jýrgender ózining balasyna ana bolyp meyirim tókpeytinin nege úqpaydy eken. Áyel bolyp asýige kirip tamaq pisire me solar? Pisire alady-au, biraq sekektep meyramhanalarda sabaq ótkizuden qoly tiymey jýrgen joq pa qasqalardyn. 5-6 balany jetkizgen onay ma, ózgeni aldasa da, arbasa da aqsha kerek... Búl - mening oiym.
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Qazir tolyqqandy adam boludy baylyqpen ólsheydi. Sening kisi sanatyna qosylghanyng qysta qar jaumaytyn jaqqa baryp teniz jaghalauynda kýnge qyzdyrynumen ólshenedi. Barlyqtyng shkalasy - Dubay, Egiypet siyaqty elderdi aralap, týie minip qaytu. Búghan Mekkeni qosugha bolady. Sol sebepten de shyghar, qanday jolmen bolsa da bayysam, sodan keyin tek әldebir túrghyn ýy kesheninde ghana túrsam nemese pәlennen qalmay qaytsem de pәlen qabatty jekejayda túruym kerek degen týsiniktegi adam kóbeydi. Meyli ghoy, ómirge bir kelgende jaqsy ómir sýru kerek. Biraq deymin de... Birinen-biri qalmay bay boludyng jolynda jarysqa týskenderge Jer sharyn ainalyp jýrgen basqa planetanyng birine ýy salyp, sonda túra almaghan song bәri beker ghoy. Sony týsinbey jýrgenderi bolmady. Shetinen aqyldy nemeler, qala mynau týtinge túnshyqqan, ózge planetanyng birine qonys audaru qalay oiyna kelmeydi? Soghan tanghalam...
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