Osy týnde mening atyma kelip týsken student qazaq qyzynyng úzaq hatynan alynghan búl qysqa ghana ýzindining ózin beyjay oqyp shyghu mýmkin emes.  Ishim qan jylap otyryp, oqyp shyghyp, әzirshe osy hattan shaghyn ghana ýzindini júrt nazaryna úsynudy jón kórdim.

Mine, bizding qazaq jastarynyng býgingi adam tózgisiz jaghdayyna bir ghana dәlel osy bolar dep oilaymyn.

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STUDENT QYZDYNG HATY

«...Ákem men anashymnyn ózderine dúrystap kiyim-keshek almasa da, ózderi qalaghan tamaqtaryn alyp jemese de, olar maghan auyzdaghylaryn jyryp beredi. Býginderi uniyversiytetting aqyly bóliminde student bolyp oqyp jýrgen men turaly әkem men anamnyng eki sózderining biri: «sen, osy oquyndy jaqsylap bitirip, joghary bilimdi maman atanghannan keyin myna elding kir-qonyn juatyn eng las, әri auyr júmysty tastaymyn» deydi mening qayran asyl anashym. Al, ózi auyryp әzer jýrgen, asa auyr júmystaghy әkeshim qu sýiegin sýiretip, ózi óleyin dep әzer jýrse de: «sen, oquyndy bitirgennen keyin alansyz óle bersem de bolar edi. Ana bastyqtaryma biyl sening oquda ekenindi, oqu aqysyn tóleu kerek ekenin aityp jatyp, jalynyp jatyp, ana adam tózgisiz qara júmystyng ózinen qysqarmay әzer qalghan edim, sen oqudy bitirgen kýni óle bersem de bolar edi...» - dep otyrady ýnemi әkem.

Olardyng búl sózderin estigende mening bala jýregim san bólshekke bólinip, qan jylaydy. «Múndaydy kórgenshe...» dep keyde ómirden de týnilip ketetinim bar. Ayta bersem, bizding otbasynyng jaghdayy adam tózgisiz sonday auyr jaghdayda. Mening jyl sayyn tóleytin oquymnyng aqshasyn tabudyng ózi mening dәrmensiz, әri dimkәs ata-anama azap bolyp otyrghany janymdy ayazday qaridy... Men siyaqty student atanyp jýrgen qazaq jasynyng basyndaghy búl auyr jaghdaydy menen basqa kim týsiner eken, әy týsinbeydi ghoy... Sebebi, ózderining bastarynan ótpegesin, olar qaydan týsinsin...

Júmys jasap, aqsha tauyp jýrsem eken, әkem men anama kómek retinde... Biraq, әtten, qolymnyng qyskalyghyn-ay, desenshi! Shynyn aitsam myna men as iship, ayaq bosatqannan basqa ne istep jýrmin? Qazir isteymin deseng de júmys joq! Bar qolymnan kelgeni, men ýshin qinalyp jýrgen әkem men shesheme sóz kelmesin dep, sabaghymdy jaqsy oqugha bar kýshimdi saludamyn. Kýndiz de, týnde de: «mening ardaqty әkem men asyl anam aman bolsa eken dep, qúdaydan tileymin!

Jaratushym mening búl kóz jasymdy kóre me, kórmey me, ol jaghyn taghy aita almaymyn...

Men búl hatty qatty qinalyp ketkennen keyin jәne asqan sharasyzdyqtan keyin amalsyz jazyp otyrmyn. Býgingi qazaq jastarynyng kóbining basynda dәp mendegidey auyr jaghdaylardyng boluy da mýmkin. Al, men qatty qinalghannan keyin, amalsyzdan osy hatty jazyp otyrmyn. Meni ayamasandar da, ana qatty qinalyp jýrgen әkem men anashymdy ayaytyn adam bar me eken jer betinde?..

Qol úshyn berip, kómektesetin jandar bolsa ghoy, shirkin, dep te armandaymyn, keyde...

Sәlemmen ekinshi kurs studenti Venera...»

(Tolyq meken jayyn, tolyq atyn, tegin, oqu ornyn keyin kórsetemin).

Júmash Kenebay (Kókbóri)

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