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Sening baghandy biz bermeymiz

Ol meni qatty tang qaldyrghan aqyn edi. Ólenin oryssha jazatyn. 2002 jyldar shamasy bolsa kerek. Poeziya keshterine mýlde adam jinalmaytyn zaman.

Birde men onyng poeziya keshine bardym.

Onyng esimi – Aron Atabek edi.

Ah, nas pokinul etot Tengriy,

Y v serdse ne voshel Allah,

Y pravyat namy toliko denigiy,

Y pravyat namy toliko strah,-degen óleng joldary esimde qalypty.

Aronnyng qasynda elikting laghynday bolyp jary Jayna jýretin. Ol nәziktikting simvoly edi. Aqyn jaryn erekshe sýietin.

Sol Aron engezerdey batyr túlghasymen sahnagha kóterildi.

Sahnada 7-8 әr týrli әdemi qyzdar men kelinshekter otyrdy. Sóitsek olar aqynnyng muzalary eken. Aron әr qyzdy ornynan túrghyzyp oghan arnaghan ólenderin oqydy.

Qazaq aqyndary óleng arnamaghan qyz joq shyghar. Biraq muzalaryn sahnagha shygharyp, әr qaysysyna qoshamet kórsetip, ólenin halyqtyng aldynda oqyp bergen aqyndy birinshi ret kóruim.

Sol jyldary mening de eng alghashqy poeziya keshim Ghalymdar ýiinde ótti.

Men keshime Aron Atabekti shaqyrdym.

Ol kezde úyaly telefon endi payda bolghan. Jәne halyq arasynda mýlde taramaghan kez. 100-ge juyq shaqyrtu qaghazyn toltyryp, sonyng tek jiyrma shaqtysyn ghana ayaqpen jýrip taratqanym esimde.

Shanyraq oqighasy әli bolmaghan. Biraq sol kezding ózinde Arongha sayasy dissiydent retinde qaraytyn.

Men onyng ýiine shaqyrtu qaghazyn alyp barghanda Aronnyng ózi qarsy aldy.

Onyng júmsaqtyghy men meyirimdiliginde shek joq edi. Qazaqsha sóileytin. Keshine mindetti týrde baramyn, Tanakóz. Jәne ólenderindi orysshagha audaryp aparamyn,-dedi.

Zalgha adam jinalmaytyn sol bir jyldary túnghysh ret Ghalymdar ýii lyq toldy. Ghalymdar ýiining jyldar boyy shang basyp ashylmay túrghan balkony ashylyp, balkon da adamgha lyq toldy.

Keshime halyq kóp keledi dep eshqashan kýtpep edim. Keshte qazirgi ataqty matematik Asqar Júmadildaev aghamyz oryn bolmaghadyqtan týregep túryp kórgeni esimde qaldy.

Sol keshte Aron óleng oqydy. Halyqtyng kóptiginen tolqyp, arqasy qozyp sahnadan týskisi kelmegenin kórdim.

Keyin osy Aron Atabek audarghan eki óleng «Debutter dostastyghy» atty halyqaralyq poeziya festivalinde jeniske jetti. Syilyqty Resey preziydenti D. Medvedev tabystauy kerek bolghan. Biraq dәl sol kýni Resey men Gruziya arasynda soghys bastalyp, syilyqty maghan Tәjikstan preziydenti Emomoly Rahmonov tabystady.

Ol maghan qayta tirilip kelgen Mahambet siyaqty elesteytin. Ózi de sol Mahambetting ólenderin orysshagha audarumen ainalysty.

Talantty, estet, djentelimen.

Eshqashan eki sóileudi bilmeytin alashordalyq ústanymnyng songhy túyaghy.

«Tiri túrsam qazaqqa qyzmet qylmay qoymaymyn»-degen Álihan qaghidatyn ispen jalghastyrushy.

Qazaqtyng ary men úyaty.

Qazaq batyrynyng eng osal túsy, jandy jeri – otbasy. Ol sol ayauly otbasyn da últ jolynda qúrban qyldy.

Seni eshkim syndyra almady. Sýiegindi ýgitti, miyndy shashty, tilindi qidalady, bauyryndy ezdi. Su bermey de synady. Jalghyzdyqpen de synady. Qaranghylyqpen de synady. Nadandyqtyng ozbyr týrimen de synady.

Halqyng seni tanymady. Biraq sen sol halyqtyng jolynda óldin.

Sen rasynda da «arynnyng tútqynysyn!». Ar jolynda mert boldyn.

IYilmegen baspen, býgilmegen tizemen, mayyrylmaghan jýzben, synbaghan ruhpen, otty jútyp, shoq býrkigen, tasty shaynap, qúm týkirgen manghaz qalpynda kókke qasqayyp qarap túryp kete bardyn!

Sening baghandy biz bermeymiz.

Sening baghandy býgingiler bermeydi.

Sening baghandy tarih beredi.

Sening býgin ólgen kýnin, Aron! Biraq sen tiriden de tirisin!

Rasynda da, Tәnir bizdi tastap ketken.

Al Alla jýregimizge enbedi. Dәl ózing aitqanday...

Aqsha men ýreyding qúshaghynda endi qansha ghasyr ómir sýremiz?

Ólding Mamay qor boldyn!

Arda arysym-ay!

Kimge basymyzdy sýiep jylaymyz?

Tanakóz Tolqynqyzy

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